Filler episode.
Sick with a (you guessed it) sinus infection. Rest, fluids, movies, soup. The basics. Itching to write a little something and I don’t think I’ve ever done one of these.
How I deal with negative thoughts
- Journaling. Got a fresh journal, I’m only a few pages in. I have a goal to fill it up by the end of the year. Last time I got to writing my hand couldn’t keep up with my thoughts. I caught a hand cramp and thought about typing it out. BUT! There is peace in a pen and paper. And no one is ever going to read it unless you show it to them. You can use journaling to get thoughts out, write a letter to someone, regulate emotions, work through a creative block, etc.. Getting out worries and other negative thoughts can be helpful. It takes up space on the paper so it doesn’t have to take up space in your head. This is also space to unpack the thoughts. “What do I know to be true?” “Where are these thoughts coming from?” “What am I feeling right now?” Simple questions that I wouldn’t remember to ask myself had it not been for therapy.
- Therapy. Talk therapy. Through therapy I’ve been able to process and talk about things that have been weighing on me. I also see a psychiatrist. I always want to be transparent about taking medication and being in therapy. Solely because it’s still a taboo thing to talk about. I also don’t want to give folks a “oh I’m in a therapy and thats it” kinda spiel. I only see my psychiatrist every few months. I see my therapist every other week. I’ve talked about friendships, relationships, assault, anxiety, depression, and being a sex educator in this political climate. I’ve cried many a tear in therapy that I didn’t even know would come tumbling out. I make the most of my therapy sessions by noting moments/thoughts I want to talk over.
- Talking with friends. Grief is painful and something that should not be handled alone. This is what I’ve been dealing with lately. It can be handled alone, but reaching out lightens the load. I reached out to some friends about the grief I had been feeling. Their comments made me feel less alone, and validated what I have been feeling. Grief is hard and makes us act out of character. Grief can make you feel like you’re experiencing some kind of mental break. Grief can hi-jack your mind and make you feel like you’re stuck in time. By time 9PM hit I realized all I had to eat that day was boba and an eel rice ball. Not having basic needs met can make you feel worse.
- Make sure your basic needs are met. The basics for me are sleep, food, and hydration. A shower ain’t too bad either. If you need a nap? Take it. Haven’t eaten all day? Get yourself something to eat. Grab some water to go with it. Your body can’t run on E.
- Coloring. It gives your hands something to do, and it locks you in on a task. Try to get coloring books of media you enjoy. I have Pokemon and Junji Ito coloring books. I have a few cutesy horror themed coloring books. I prefer to use coloring pencils but I have crayons and markers in my arsenal as well. It’s fun to create.
- Being outside in nature. Taking a walk, reading a book, either way I need to be out in some grass. I have allergies, but that doesn’t stop me. I prefer parks or hiking trails by the water.
Chile.
I thought I could knock this out in a day but rest was calling me. I know it said the best way, but we love having options don’t we?
I am feeling better than I did earlier in the week.
A fun lil tidbit: I’ve been getting into herbs lately. Things that I can grow on my own. Basil, thyme, dill, things like that. Would you know them damn squirrels dug up my seeds and took em? I’ve grown basil before inside and didn’t think much of putting my herbs in planters outside. Lo and behold squirrels (or birds) have been stealing my seeds! Imagine my face as I moved some dirt in a small planter and saw absolutely nothing. No growth. NOTHING. Thought I was growing herbs for myself turns out I was feeding my local animals. Will be bringing those pots in and re-planting.
Thank you for reading, and thank you for being here. I’ll see yah next time, slayers💕
Lingerie Slayer 
Thoughts?