Lingerie Slayer

When I think about lingerie, I think about vulnerability. It’s not easy being vulnerable. Surely not easy in a world that may not always appreciate our vulnerable selves. Our true self. Our authentic self.

The word “hiding” also comes up for me. With lingerie I feel that I can not hide. Or better yet, I choose not to. When I was younger I did everything I could to hide my stretch marks. I tried creams, oils, lotions, and makeup. There was no way to get rid of them, so I tried my best to cover them up. It was exhausting. Every. Single. Time. I remember applying whatever I had and being met with disappointment when they didn’t instantly vanish.

I was forced to think about those days with the arrival of some new stretch marks on my stomach. I found myself in a pharmacy looking at oils for stretch marks. I noted the difference in price along with the difference in marketing. Both products contained the same ingredients and were about the same size. I put them down and walked out.

Capitalism is fucked up and I’ll be damned if I allow it to make money from my insecurities ever again. I’m not immune to marketing, but I try to make sure my want for the item doesn’t come from me needing to fix something. Something on my body any way. I have stretch marks. I have scars. I have discoloration in some areas. I have body hair. I have a body and I’m proud of my body. I missed out on some great outfits because I thought my body was *too much. Not doing that anymore.

So I wear what makes me feel good. Lingerie makes me feel good. The soft fabrics. The colors. The attention to detail. The garters. When you get the look just right? That feels good.

Today, the coquette ruffle teddy by Laina Rauma makes me feel good. I got the teddy in pink and a few other pieces from that drop in orange. The minute I ripped it out the package, it was love at first site. The color and the soft fabric completely consumed me. Once I put it on? I immediately logged in to get it in orange. It doesn’t even feel like I’m wearing lingerie. Doesn’t feel like I’m wearing anything at all. It’s so soft and lightweight.

The material is stretchy and there’s a soft corset tie in the back. I didn’t even have to adjust it. I was going to try playing around with it for maybe a tighter fit? But it’s double knotted and my nails are long. No biggie! Still fits beautifully. I have big arms so I try to stay away from things that don’t factor that. But my arms do not feel constricted, doesn’t feel tight.

Bright colored lingerie is so fun! When I first started buying lingerie, I stuck to your basic dark colors. Over the past few months, I’ve been going BRIGHT. This particular shade of pink looks phenomenal on me, and I’m kind of sad I only got this teddy. I bought up most of the orange first because I have NO orange lingerie. Ooo, now I’m thinking about color coordinating my lingerie closet. Hmm, that’s a project for another day.

These photos were taken while I was listening to Wé Ani. What I listen to while I’m writing and taking photos is just as important as the project itself. I hope you’ve enjoyed my first post back. Other dope things will be dropping as the week progresses. I’m always happy to have you here and your support is ALWAYS appreciated.

I was taking time to focus on school and get back into my love of reading. I was reading so much for academia ya’ll. So I stocked up on manga and some fictional reads. So far I’m LOVING it. Just happy to be back and thriving in the summer.

THANK YOU FOR READING!!! Thank you for going on this journey with me, and I can’t wait to see all the magic that I will continue to make. 💕