Tag: Personal

On to 2023

Ending the year on a good note. Cheers to 2023!!!

“Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?”

Why did I log in to write a post about mental health and see this lil prompt at the top. I’m sure I’m not special and anyone who writes on this platform probably saw it. Makes sense seeing as how we’re ending the year in a few days.

Instead of a sad post, this post may be a lil ✨uplifting✨

I’m ending the year a grad student. So many other things happened, right? But this, this right here. A wild concept to me. I put my all into those entrance exams and I was anxious the entire way. I was anxious from start to finish. That admissions letter felt so good.

I’m an educator.

I’m a blogger.

I’m a content creator.

Yes, I had some doubts about my age and time. But I’m going to keep getting older and time is going to keep moving. I made peace with getting older. There are societal pressures that tell you how you should look, where you should be in life, when you age out of certain hobbies. In the grand scheme of things that is complete bullshit. You grow. You learn. You have new experiences.

It’s never too late. It’s never too late to pursue that job or that degree. Know that.

Concerning my education, I haven’t wanted something that bad in a minute. After 29 years of walking this earth I now realize that education is a privilege. The education I’ve had the opportunity to receive is a privilege.

I study sexuality and everything that comes with it because it’s such an important part of our lives. It’s integral to who we are as human beings. I love the research that I’m doing and I love the classes that I’m taking. I got accepted in August and I ended my first semester in November. I made school a priority and I was able to adapt to a new schedule with ease.

It wasn’t this easy overnight transition. The body keeps the score (remind me to finish that book) so I missed my period for an entire month. I thought there was something wrong physically. In a sense there was. My body was holding onto trauma from past experiences of being on a college campus. It was an annoying mental block at the time. I wasn’t depressed, but I sure was anxious. Imposter syndrome was creeping up on me. I was questioning my intelligence.

I wasn’t the only one. Several peers discussed their anxieties. Their hopes. Their fears. Our humanity.

I’m so happy that I was able to share space with so many different personalities and view points. Some conversations we’ve had I will always remember.

With that being said, I’m truly looking forward to next semester. Excited to see what books I’ll be reading. I’m currently in bed with a sinus infection turned ear infection 🙂. That halted most of my plans because I feel like crap. I haven’t taken a sick day in quite some time, funny it would come the end of the year.

So I’m in bed minding my business and playing the sims.

Hopefully by time you read this, I’m not feeling like a zombie. I haven’t been able to do much of anything. It stressed me out at first, but if I need rest, I need rest.

I’m excited to see what 2023 has to offer. 2022 was great and it can only get better. Thank you for reading, and I’ll see you next year!!✨💕✨

🎉HAPPY NEW YEAR🎉

I’m so happy to have you here! I’m so happy you’re reading my first post of 2022! I have a good feeling about this year for me and all of those around me. I ended my year on a GREAT note.

I was invited to talk on a podcast during that last week of December! Late Night With Ler and Lionel is a podcast hosted by two Philly natives. I had so much fun talking kink and answering a few emails from listeners with them. The episode is titled “Spank Me ft. Lucas“. You can find them on Apple, Spotify, YouTube, and they even have merch! I’ll link all of their links here so you can check them out.

I booked a Cosplay shoot with another Philly creative. Said shoot is coming up this week! I’m revisiting an old Cosplay with a few new ideas. I don’t have any professionally done Cosplay photos so I’m SUPER excited to see how everything turns out. I’ll also be working on another kinky project with them down the road. We’ve been mutuals on twitter for a minute, and just recently started planning things. I truly love that for us.

This year is all about taking chances. Doing shit that is scary and anxiety ridden. 2022 is the you stop beating yourself up about your content and just put that shit out. I say this for myself and anyone else reading. I STILL have some content that hasn’t seen the light of day because I deem it imperfect. To be completely honest somebody would eat this shit right up, so I need to say fuck it and upload it.

I’m getting out of my head today and forever. Oh! I also took myself out. on a lunch date for New Years Eve. It being NYE didn’t really mean much to me. I just wanted to do something meaningful before the year was up. I went to this ramen place I’ve always wanted to go to and bought every damn copy of Komi Can’t Communicate 1-15 that I could. It’s out of order like shit, but best believe I was getting Komi Can’t Communicate.

This is truly going to be a good year for me, and I can’t wait to see all that unfolds.

Thank you for reading and stopping by! It’s always a pleasure when you take time out of your day to read what I write. It’s always appreciated and puts a HUGE smile on my face! 😁

I’ll have a lovely lingerie review up for you tomorrow! 💕

✨Mental Health Awareness Month✨

I’ve been quite busy these past few weeks. I’ve started creative content full-time again and planning out new life goals. Feels like the perfect month to have done so. If you didn’t know May is Mental Health Awareness month. Depression is something that I’ve dealt with for most of my life. With some anxiety thrown in there every now and then. I’ve had to make SEVERAL changes to improve my mental health. Life looks different for all of us, it’s just how we live it. I’m here to share some things that have assisted me. Hopefully you find some peace within these words.

In no particular order these are some simple things I’ve done to improve my mental health. Some of these things are still a work in progress, and THAT’S OKAY.

Found myself a solid therapist. I found my therapist through therapyforblackgirls.com. It was important for me to find a Black woman as a therapist. She’s a good person, I look forward to her feedback each time that we meet. She’s introduced me to resources, further assistance with coping mechanisms, and gives me the space to discuss what I need to.

Started a consistent workout challenge. I was supposed to start a challenge with my girlfriend at the beginning of the month. That first week? I feel as though I flopped. I realized that I needed to make things fun and tailored to what I was looking to improve about my body. So I put together the KANROJI CHALLENGE. I used the workouts from SuperHeroJacked.com as a base and then tailored it to my needs. I had been checking out this website for a while, and had been meaning to pick a character with a workout plan to follow. I was SO EXCITED to see that they finally added Mitsuri Kanroji. It’s her flexibility and strength that I admire. Perfect for pole dancing. Ever since I put that workout together I’ve been exercising 5 times a week with 1 day for an hour of yoga.

Pole Dancing. I love playing music. I love listening to music. Pole dancing takes my mind out of anything stressing me. I get to vibe out to the music and move my body. I do get caught up in not being able to achieve some moves sometimes. I do get caught up in the fact that I’m not as flexible as I want to be. But I know it can all be achieved. That’s the thing about pole dancing or anything really. You don’t see how good you’re already getting if you’re focused on what you can’t do. I’ve learned to revel in my mistakes and the moves that I hit. Both are learning experiences.

Spending time with friends and being real with them. With Covid all my people took precautions. When the pandemic hit I wasn’t seeing anyone and I’ve really been slowly having friends over and hanging out. I enjoy all of my friendships. I enjoy getting to know people. I enjoy seeing my friends succeed. I love being able to help them out if I can. I’ve been working on getting real loose with the “I love you”‘s. I want my friends to know that I’m there for them and that I appreciate them. I enjoy being around them and I’ve really missed it.

Getting a new schedule. A new schedule for work, balancing out personal and social time. That shit feels hard sometimes. But organization feels even better. I got a new planner, whiteboard, notebooks, and some other supplies for the office. I do well with writing things down and having reminders.

Setting goals. Doesn’t matter how big or small, goals are always needed. I set the goal to stop drinking and I did. I say that because sometimes we don’t think our goals are accomplishable.

Letting the creativity fly. Don’t overthink it. Just do it. Whether it be for you or social media. Take that photo. Shoot that video. Do your makeup. Get dressed up in cosplay. Do whatever makes you feel free. I’ve been putting my new camera to use on the daily. Planned projects and others I may shoot for the hell of it.

BLASTING MUSIC. Simple, no need for explanation. I’m a huge fan of Fall Out Boy, classical music, rap, whatever. If I can vibe to it, I’m playing it. I’ve been blasting anime openers out of my car like nobody’s business. Cause it really aint anybody’s business. Them jawns hit and I deserve to fly down the highway blasting Kaikai Kitan by Eve.

Thank you so much for reading my writing! With the weather getting warmer I most definitely want to be outside. It’s the pollen that’s fucking with me though. I’ve been dealing with allergies ever since I was a kid. Forgot I had em during the winter months. These frequent showers of pollen surely reminded me and have been kicking my ass.

I’m going to be honest with you. I want to switch up my blog. STILL GIVING YOU REVIEWS. I just want a focus on the words instead of always worrying about what pic I’m going to make the featured image. It’s not that deep, but it’s been nagging at me. I’m busy with fetish work so I’ll probably have some time to finesse this over the weekend. I at least want to get it SOLID. Solid so that I don’t feel the need for any layout changes and I can keep giving you content.

Yeah, I’ve really been focusing on myself these past few weeks. I LOVE all of the support everyone has given me with this blog and I can’t wait to be writing and what not regularly for you all!